Post Holiday Motivation

So today is Tuesday 20 August 2019, day one of my ‘Miracle Morning 30 Day Life Transformation Challenge (I will explain more about that shortly, first I need to tell you about my holiday).

So in the weeks running up to my holiday, I struggled to find the motivation to lead a healthy life style, by that I mean refraining from drinking alcohol for more than 5 days at a time, eating healthy food and doing some form of exercise, other than exercising my mouth.

I had a serious case of ‘Putting it off until tomorrow syndrome’ Unfortunately tomorrow was actually 5 or 6 weeks away. Thankfully, I am now back from holiday and my motivation to live a happy, healthy life style is through the roof!!!!

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had an amazing holiday!!! However, I am pretty sure my holiday would still have been amazing without my daily diet of croissants for breakfast, bread and cheese for lunch, chocolate waffles as an afternoon snack followed by dinner. All washed down with red wine and cold beer.

Lets talk about a Miracle Morning (my post holiday motivation). Like many, I love to read when I am on holiday and my book of choice this year was the Miracle Morning by Hal Elrod. Its about 6 habits that will transform your life before 8am. In the opening page it had a success story from a women who had been doing the miracle morning for 79 days and as a result has lost 29lbs. (79 days?? That is just over 2 months) . From the moment I read this I was hooked. I want to lose 29lbs and would be overjoyed if I achieved that in the next 3 months.

So what is this Miracle Morning and what do I have to do??????

Basically you get up a little earlier in the morning and commit to some personal development. No one would argue that personal development is not good for you.

The 6 habits are called SAVERS

S is for SILENCE – Either sitting in silence or meditating. (I’m going to go with meditation).

A is for Affirmations – This is not something I have done before so I checked out affirmations on google about healthy living.

V is for Visualisations – This is an easy one for me, I love my vision boards.

E is for Exercise – I chose to go for a run (that’s my thing, but any exercise is good)

R is for reading – Reading something that will inspire you or teach you something new. I am reading the Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I love this book, it always puts me in a really positive mindset and that is sooo what I need right now)

S is for scribing – AKA writing. This could be writing in a journal, writing a gratitude list or even writing a book, if that is something you want to do. I am going to commit to writing my blog for the next 30 days.

The beauty of the miracle morning is you can do each one for a long or as little time as you want. Even if you only do each practice for one minute a day, that it 6 minutes of personal development you didn’t do yesterday!!! This personal development will then lead you to achieve your goals. Mine being to live a healthier, happier lifestyle and drop 29lbs in the process.

So this is how my morning has looked so far on day one of my Miracle Morning Life Transformation Challenge:

I woke up at 6am, I jumped out of bed as soon as my alarm went off and went straight to the bathroom. I drank a large glass of water and brushed my teeth. (this was to make sure I didn’t go back to bed).

I then went down stairs (away from my bed!!) and did a 10 minute, guided, morning meditation that I found through google. After that I read the Secret for 15 minutes, which reminded me that like attracts like. What does that mean??

Positive thoughts attract positive actions, whereas Negative thoughts attract negative actions!!! I want to live a happy, healthy life…so it will positive thoughts from me from now on.

Next up was Affirmations. I have never done this before and being completely honest I felt really silly talking to myself in the mirror for 5 minutes. However, I went with it and really tried to feel what I was saying. My Affirmation of choice today was:

I am grateful for my healthy body, I love my life and I love myself” I’m not particularly happy with the way my body looks right now, but I am genuinely happy about my health and all that my body can do!! (Remember focus on the positive).

After my affirmations, I moved onto visualisations, I love visualising, it is day dreaming for grown ups. I visualised, getting to my goal weight and how it would feel going and buying myself a new pair of Levis jeans.

Exercising and Scribing (writing) are probably my favourite. I went for a run (6km) and now I am sitting here writing my blog. You only have to look at my recent posts to see I haven’t really been up for blog writing recently. But here I am, back and focused and feeling alive. I love writing my blog, it brings me joy, especially when I get feedback from people saying I have inspired them in someway.

So over the next 30 days I am going to commit to doing my SAVERS everyday including writing my blog. Watch this space for my progress.

I want to wear pretty dresses

For those that follow me on Instagram, you’ll know that since June I haven’t exactly been living the most healthy lifestyle.

Here’s the thing, the summer for me means glasses of ice cold beer or Chardonnay, so every time the sun comes out, I forget I want to be slim and healthy and instead opt out of exercise and opt into sitting in the garden with a drink.

Now if I ate healthy food and did regular exercise, drinking a glass of wine wouldn’t be a problem. However that is not what happens. For starters I don’t drink one glass of wine, I drink the bottle. I then can’t be bothered to cook the healthy meal I had planned, so I resort to take away.

I like to run in the morning, but there is no way I’m getting out of bed at 5am if I’ve drank wine and eaten pizza the night before.

We are now in July and I have gained 8lbs (it was 10lbs, but I lost 2 this week).

I have to ask myself what do I want, do I want to sit in the garden and drink wine. It was lovely sitting there if I am completely honest, but what I want more than that glass of wine is to wear gorgeous pretty dresses!!

Everyone is different, but for me personally, I can not live a healthy lifestyle and have the body I want if I drink alcohol.

What is drinking in moderation

When you tell people you no longer drink, they usually assume you have quit because you had an alcohol problem, otherwise why would you quit????? Alcohol is so good Right????

More often than not, when I go into more detail about my personal reasons for quitting, people will ask things like “but you will have a glass of champagne at a wedding?” or “‘you can still have a glass of wine with dinner?”.

The most common line I have heard since giving up the booze is:

Everything in moderation’

(This is normally said by someone who doesn’t actually drink in moderation, which makes me smile.)

So what exactly is drinking in moderation????

I live in the United Kingdom and our National Health Service (NHS) drinking guidelines are as follows:

“Men and women should not exceed 14 units of alcohol a week, this is the equivalent of 6 pints of average strength beer (4% ABV) or 7 medium glasses of wine (175ml, 12% ABV)”.

They also say “if you drink less than 14 units a week, this is considered low risk drinking. it’s called ‘low risk’ rather than ‘safe’ because there is no safe drinking level.

MAYO CLINIC defines moderate drinking as:

“Moderate alcohol use for healthy adults is up to one drink a day for women and up to 2 drinks a day for men.

They go onto say “even moderate drinking isn’t risk free. Light drinkers have a tiny but real, increased risk of some cancer”.

I know loads of people who don’t drink every day and they rarely go over the 14 units a week, so they are moderate drinkers right????

WRONG!!!!!!

Drinking 14 units of alcohol all in one day or over a weekend is binge drinking and binge drinking is classed as heavy drinking…like it or not!!!!

So with that information, I can honestly say, I don’t know a single person who is a moderate drinker. However, I know a lot of people who believe they drink in moderation.

When the risks of heavy drinking (including weekend binge drinkers) includes cancers of the mouth, throat and breast, stroke, heart disease, liver disease and brain damage not to mention a higher risk to poor mental health and personal injury.

I have to ask the question:

WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO DRINK????

The reason is we are all addicted to alcohol whether we choose to believe it or not!!!

Do we drink alcohol because it is in our genes??

I was having a conversation the other day with a very good friend of mine about
alcohol and moderate drinking. The call was prompted by the fact that my ‘100 day sobriety’ challenge finishes the day we go on holiday, which she found funny and prompted the question.


“Does that mean you are drinking on holiday?”

The truth is, I don’t want to drink!!! Not on holiday, not ever!! I am so much happier now I don’t drink anymore, unfortunately that doesn’t mean I won’t drink on holiday.

I have a huge battle going on in my head at the moment about whether or not drinking in moderation is a good or bad thing. For me personally, I know deep down that what would start as moderate drinking would soon turn into regular drinking (every weekend), which would set me right back to the beginning.


I feel amazing having given up the booze, so I don’t want to go back there!!!

My friend suggested perhaps I could try drinking at her pace. She is one of those women who can open a bottle of wine, pour themselves one glass and then put the rest of the bottle back in the fridge for another day. Me on other hand, when I opened a bottle of wine, I was drinking a bottle of wine.

I discussed this current battle in my head in depth with her, after all I am going to need her support when we are on holiday, It won’t help me abstain if she is saying “go on, one won’t do you any harm” She listened to what I was saying, but she can’t really understand how I feel as she doesn’t have the same relationship with alcohol that I do.

So, What is my relationship with alcohol these days. I’ve been pretty much alcohol free for the last 7 months?


I don’t consider myself to be an alcoholic, but I do think I am addicted to alcohol. I tried for years to give up drinking and failed. When I read sobriety books which are written by people who refer to themselves as alcoholics I can see I have many of the same traits as them. for example: I begrudge sharing a bottle of wine with my husband, “it’s my bottle, get your own” or I go out for lunch with friends but I stop listening to what they are saying because I have just seen them pour more wine into their glass than mine.

My friend then suggested that perhaps it is just in my genes. I absolutely hated the idea that I was born with a defect that made me drink alcohol!!!!


So, I researched the concept and was pleased to find that alcoholism, no matter what degree it effects you (alcoholic or weekend binge drinker). It’s not in anyway shape or form related to your genes.

HOORAH!!!

In fact, my research shows that the catalyst that leads to alcohol abuse is almost always from environmental factors like work, stress and relationships. The simple fact is, alcohol is an addictive substance and the more of an addictive substance you have the more you want!! This is the case for all addictive substances not just alcohol, but cigarettes, drugs and even sugar too.

Parenting is not easier with wine!!!

Last night after a productive day in the office, I left work and made my way to school, to pick up my children. I’d had a good day and I was feel pretty blooming happy. I was looking forward to my seeing my two babies and finding out what they had been up to all day.

The school pick up went smoothly. I got two lovely cuddles and bonus for me they approved of my plans for dinner that evening (chicken fajitas). They didn’t even fight about who was going to sit in the front seat of the car. WINNER!

What could possibly go wrong???

We enter the house and Elliott runs out into the back garden to get his bike, he then proceeds through the house with his bike, making his way towards the front door. “Where are you going?” I ask, “out to play” replied Elliott. “You have a swimming lesson in half an hour, go and get your swimming kit ready“. (His brother at this time is up stairs getting his swimming kit ready as we had been discussing swimming lessons in the car journey home from school, so it wasn’t as if he wasn’t aware).

I can literally see the anger rise up from Elliott’s feet to his face as he turns bright red and lets out a god awful scream. A scene I see all to often and always reminds me of the incredible hulk, when he rips through his clothes and turns green. Elliott drops his bike to floor and starts jumping up and down on the wheel, like something you would see in a cartoon. He is screaming at me “I want to go out and play, I don’t want to go swimming” .

I’m sure it will come as no surprise to hear our pet name for Elliott is ‘Wreck it Ralph’!!!

I calmly tell him I will phone the pool and check his swimming lesson is still going on. While I am on the phone, Elliott is still throwing a tantrum, kicking his bike, the door the walls. Turns out his lesson has actually been double booked.

HOORAHHH!!!! End up tantrum right?……….WRONG!!!!

I try to tell him his lesson has been cancelled, so he can go out, but he can’t hear me because he is screaming to loud. I lose my temper and send him up to his room to get changed and to calm down.

Big mistake sending him up stairs!!! Innocently getting his swimming gear together, Bradley (Elliott’t brother) has now become Elliott’s new target.

3, 2, 1

MMMMUUUUUMMMMM!!!!! ARRRRRRGGGGHHHH Elliott’s just…….. I can’t hear what he is saying because he is crying, but I am betting Elliott has just done to Bradley what he was just doing to his bike.

I march up stairs and send them both to their rooms, telling them they are grounded. Bradley screams “I didn’t do anything” and slams his door on me. Elliott just screams!!!!

Now, this is the part where I rejoice at the fact I no longer drink, because since giving up the booze, I no longer turn into an angry Mummy who shouts and screams because she has lost control of the situation. I don’t scream at the kids to stay out of my sight because I have had enough. I don’t march back downstairs in need of a glass of wine so I can calm down.

Instead I stop, I breath and think about how I can turn this situation around. I walk into Bradley’s room and tell him he is not grounded and that I made mistake. Bradley is happy!!!

I now just need to control Elliott!!

Elliott at this point is in his room trashing the place, or at least that’s what it sounds like. I sit and wait for him to come out. He has worked himself into such a state he can’t even talk. I tell him to come and have a cuddle and calm down. He tries to talk but he is crying to hard, I tell him to be quiet, just to give mummy a cuddle and calm down. I give him a huge hug and tell him I love him, but his behaviour has been unacceptable. I tell him he is grounded so he is not going out to play, but he can come and help me with dinner if he likes. (Elliott loves helping me in the kitchen). Elliott is now happy!!

5 minutes later, we are in the kitchen cutting up vegetables for dinner and talking about our days. As I stand there, I suddenly become very proud of myself. Situations like this one, happen a lot in my house. I have two children who fight like cat and dog daily. I used to drink wine to cope with the stress of being a parent, but the fact is I cope so much better without it!!!!

I want to be free!!!

So today is day 7 of my 100 day sobriety challenge. I feel completely motivated!!! rather than saying “I’m never going to drink again” 100 days is so doable. I’ve done it before and I felt fantastic for it.

This new found motivation came from my latest read ‘A Happier Hour’ by Rebecca Meller. This is by far my favourite sobriety book yet and I totally recommend it to anyone who wants to cut down on their drinking. It was as if her book was written just for me!! It addressed all my current concerns about getting through special events without an alcoholic drink in my hand.

On New Year’s Day, I’d been sober for just over 2 months and I truly believed because I’d got through Christmas and New Year without a drink that I would never drink again.

How wrong was I???

I’d been sober for almost 6 months when I was tempted to drink again. I was on holiday and everyone drinks on holiday right???

Thank fully, as soon as I got back home, I stopped and didn’t touch another drop until my friends Hen Party last weekend.

This has made me ask myself the question.

Is it so bad to have a drink on special occasions??

Especially if I can stop drinking as soon as the special event is over.

What’s the problem??

The fact is, I don’t want to drink anymore. I don’t enjoy drinking and it annoys me that I seem to drink for the sake of it.

When I drank on holiday did it make my holiday more enjoyable?

NO!!! Being hungover on holiday is not enjoyable at all, especially on a boat.

When I drank at my friend’s Hen Party did it make me have more fun?

NO!!! I ruined an amazingly fun day by throwing up at the end of it.

I have a lot of special occasions coming up in the next 100 days. A holiday, 3 weddings, a festival, my birthday, my husband’s graduation and another hen party.

I don’t want to drink, so I am setting myself a challenge that will see me sober through all these special occasions.

Then in 100 days, hopefully i’ll have realised that special occasions are more fun sober. Allowing me to be free from alcohol once and for all!!

My Why

October 2018

3 am, its always 3 am when I wake up sweating, in desperate need of water and a trip to the toilet. When I return to bed I struggle to get back to sleep and tell myself I need to stop doing this to myself. I love my sleep, I need my sleep!!! Yet my current eating and drinking habits are doing everything they can to make sure I don’t get any sleep.

My alarm goes off at 5.30am. I drag myself into the bathroom and take a good look at myself in the mirror. My skin is horrendous, its red, blotchy and bloated. I’m covered in breakouts, I used to be so proud of my young-looking skin.

I step onto the scales. I am 20kg over weight. I am a mess!!! My husband has turned into a total body conscious fitty over the last year. He looks amazing and in response I have rebelled and turned into a big fat slob.

Way to go Lynzi!!!!

This needs to end now!!!

Will quitting the booze really be the answer to all my problems, will quitting the booze help me sleep, make me fitter, healthier, HAPPIER?? If I stop drinking will I start to look the way I want to look. I want to look good, its vain I know but I do. When I look good I feel good!!

I feel fat and ugly at the moment. I feel tired and lifeless. I want to be full of energy, I want to leak happiness, wellbeing and confidence the way I used to.

I remember several years ago before children and the stress of everday life took hold, my boss coming into my office and saying, “I love coming in here, your positivity and happiness is infectious”. I was so confident back then. I loved the way I looked, I loved the way people looked at me. I loved being me!!

The difference between then and now – I looked after myself then. I ran every day, I ate a healthy diet, I read lots of positive thinking books and I meditated regularly. I didn’t get involved in negative chit chat. I was happy and a joy to be around!!!!

That is what the problem is here. I don’t love myself anymore, I don’t respect myself anymore and therefore I don’t look after myself, I drag myself through one day to the next, living for the weekend when I can drown my stresses in wine and junk food

I know what I need to do, I need to stop drinking and eating junk food every time I feel slightly stressed or unhappy. I need to start eating right. I need to drink more water and get a good night’s sleep. I need to stop watching crap TV and start reading more books. I need to do more exercise and start looking after myself.

That is exactly what I did!!

April 2019

I have been alcohol free now for nearly 6 months and I feel amazing!! Stress is pretty much something of the past. I still have the occasional bad day in the office or with the kids, but I can identify my feelings and tackle them head on. I think so clearly now. I meditate and exercise regularly. I have lost 11kg. I spend the money I save from buying wine on monthly massages and facials. My skin is looking so good I can go out without wearing foundation. My hair is soft and shiny. I feel amazing. I feel healthy, I feel happy!!

So why oh why did I ruin this feeling by drinking on holiday and at my friend’s hen do last weekend?

I’ll tell you why!!

I had forgotten my why!!!

I feel so good now, I had forgotten how bad I felt six months ago. I don’t ever want to go back to feeling that way so I need to promise myself that I will never forget my WHY again!!