Hi Honey I’m home – Sitting sober on cloud nine is back in the building!!

Where do I start, its been a while since my last blog, convincing myself that I do not have a drinking problem because I don’t drink everyday and because there are so many people out there that drink way more than I do.

Well the fact is I do have a drinking problem. My problem is that I know drinking makes me feel like crap, it makes me tired, stressed and agitated and yet I still do it!! WHY?????

I use the excuse that it helps me to relax, but I know that’s bullshit!!! It’s the wine that is making me stressed in the first place, not to mention making me fat and lazy to boot.

No matter how many times I say “I’m going to stop drinking once and for all” I always seem to end up back in the same place….me sat on my sofa, drinking red wine. It never used to be more than a bottle, but more recently that one bottle has turned into two. which is really scary!!!!

As I sat heavily in my hangover yesterday, unable to do all the things I had intended to do, I knew that something has to change. So I am back here in blog writing mode starting my journey to sitting sober on cloud nine once more, hoping that this time will be the last time I have to start over.

My plan is to go back to the gym and start working out again. I’m going to make sure I am treating my body with the respect that it deserves because when I eat the right food, exercise and mediate, I feel amazing…my body needs this!! I need this!!!

To help me stay on track I am going to get back to writing regular blogs about how great life is when you are Sitting SOBER on Cloud Nine.

See you soon L xxx

Post Holiday Motivation

So today is Tuesday 20 August 2019, day one of my ‘Miracle Morning 30 Day Life Transformation Challenge (I will explain more about that shortly, first I need to tell you about my holiday).

So in the weeks running up to my holiday, I struggled to find the motivation to lead a healthy life style, by that I mean refraining from drinking alcohol for more than 5 days at a time, eating healthy food and doing some form of exercise, other than exercising my mouth.

I had a serious case of ‘Putting it off until tomorrow syndrome’ Unfortunately tomorrow was actually 5 or 6 weeks away. Thankfully, I am now back from holiday and my motivation to live a happy, healthy life style is through the roof!!!!

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had an amazing holiday!!! However, I am pretty sure my holiday would still have been amazing without my daily diet of croissants for breakfast, bread and cheese for lunch, chocolate waffles as an afternoon snack followed by dinner. All washed down with red wine and cold beer.

Lets talk about a Miracle Morning (my post holiday motivation). Like many, I love to read when I am on holiday and my book of choice this year was the Miracle Morning by Hal Elrod. Its about 6 habits that will transform your life before 8am. In the opening page it had a success story from a women who had been doing the miracle morning for 79 days and as a result has lost 29lbs. (79 days?? That is just over 2 months) . From the moment I read this I was hooked. I want to lose 29lbs and would be overjoyed if I achieved that in the next 3 months.

So what is this Miracle Morning and what do I have to do??????

Basically you get up a little earlier in the morning and commit to some personal development. No one would argue that personal development is not good for you.

The 6 habits are called SAVERS

S is for SILENCE – Either sitting in silence or meditating. (I’m going to go with meditation).

A is for Affirmations – This is not something I have done before so I checked out affirmations on google about healthy living.

V is for Visualisations – This is an easy one for me, I love my vision boards.

E is for Exercise – I chose to go for a run (that’s my thing, but any exercise is good)

R is for reading – Reading something that will inspire you or teach you something new. I am reading the Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I love this book, it always puts me in a really positive mindset and that is sooo what I need right now)

S is for scribing – AKA writing. This could be writing in a journal, writing a gratitude list or even writing a book, if that is something you want to do. I am going to commit to writing my blog for the next 30 days.

The beauty of the miracle morning is you can do each one for a long or as little time as you want. Even if you only do each practice for one minute a day, that it 6 minutes of personal development you didn’t do yesterday!!! This personal development will then lead you to achieve your goals. Mine being to live a healthier, happier lifestyle and drop 29lbs in the process.

So this is how my morning has looked so far on day one of my Miracle Morning Life Transformation Challenge:

I woke up at 6am, I jumped out of bed as soon as my alarm went off and went straight to the bathroom. I drank a large glass of water and brushed my teeth. (this was to make sure I didn’t go back to bed).

I then went down stairs (away from my bed!!) and did a 10 minute, guided, morning meditation that I found through google. After that I read the Secret for 15 minutes, which reminded me that like attracts like. What does that mean??

Positive thoughts attract positive actions, whereas Negative thoughts attract negative actions!!! I want to live a happy, healthy life…so it will positive thoughts from me from now on.

Next up was Affirmations. I have never done this before and being completely honest I felt really silly talking to myself in the mirror for 5 minutes. However, I went with it and really tried to feel what I was saying. My Affirmation of choice today was:

I am grateful for my healthy body, I love my life and I love myself” I’m not particularly happy with the way my body looks right now, but I am genuinely happy about my health and all that my body can do!! (Remember focus on the positive).

After my affirmations, I moved onto visualisations, I love visualising, it is day dreaming for grown ups. I visualised, getting to my goal weight and how it would feel going and buying myself a new pair of Levis jeans.

Exercising and Scribing (writing) are probably my favourite. I went for a run (6km) and now I am sitting here writing my blog. You only have to look at my recent posts to see I haven’t really been up for blog writing recently. But here I am, back and focused and feeling alive. I love writing my blog, it brings me joy, especially when I get feedback from people saying I have inspired them in someway.

So over the next 30 days I am going to commit to doing my SAVERS everyday including writing my blog. Watch this space for my progress.

What is a hangover???

A hangover is the term we use for all the side effects that result from drinking too much alcohol. The side effects typically being a pounding headache, sensitivity to light and sound, sickness and diarrhoea, dizziness, shaking, irritability and tiredness.

I have had some stinking hangovers over the years, the worst one I can remember was after a cocktail drinking binge with our club rep on the last night of our holiday back in 2015. I’m not talking a Club 18-30s Rep, this was the kids club rep at Eurocamp, who seemed to be on a mission to get me and my bestie super drunk on dodgy french spirits.

Her mission was a success, I don’t remember going to bed that evening and I was still throwing up the next day, seconds before we had to check out. The drive from Eurocamp to the ferry was one of the worst experiences of my life!!! I swear I passed out at least twice, I remember begging my husband to pull over so I could get some water, only to be told we didn’t have time because we were already running late because I couldn’t stop being sick.

I swore I would never drink again!!!!!

That lasted three maybe four hours until I got on the ferry and realised I could get a free glass of champagne with my ticket……. “Hair of the dog anyone?”

What I don’t understand is why, if we all know what horrendous effects alcohol can have on us, why on earth do we drink it?? We are knowingly poising ourselves!!!

We wouldn’t consider taking arsenic or cyanide every weekend!! Why is alcohol so different? The symptoms are the same!!

Cyanide poisoning causes; confusion, bizarre behaviour, headaches and dizziness and Arsenic poisoning causes drowsiness, headaches, confusion, diarrhoea and sickness.

Whats the difference????

There is only one way to avoid the horrendous hangover:

DON’T DRINK!!!!

Am I addicted to alcohol?

If you drink alcohol regularly, as in every weekend, even if you only have the one, then you probably are addicted to alcohol in some way shape or form. It doesn’t make you a bad person. It’s an addictive substance. It happens to the best if us!

I believe there are many types of alcohol addiction. Functional addiction, emotional addiction, social addiction. Whatever your reason for drinking. If you believe you NEED it, whether to relax, to have fun, or to build confidence then you are probably addicted to alcohol. Nobody NEEDS alcohol. It offers us no health benefits what so ever. FACT!!

Some people believe they NEED alcohol to function, they physically cannot get through their day without it. Others believe they NEED it to build confidence, having a quick drink before they deliver an important presentation. I drank at the weekends to help me relax and unwind after a busy week of being Mum, Wife, Career woman, dog owner and house keeper. I was the perfect example of someone who is emotionally addicted to alcohol.

I One Hundred percent believed I NEEDED wine to relax. I didn’t think I was addicted to alcohol though. I thought I was in complete control of my drinking. I mean, I rarely drank more than a bottle of wine. Surely the fact I decided what was an acceptable amount to drink and stuck to it showed control, right???

The truth is, although I rarely drank more than a bottle. I rarely drank less than a bottle!! In fact, I’d be miffed if I had to share that bottle, like when my husband says he doesn’t want any, but then changes his mind after I’ve only bought one bottle from the shop or when I’m sharing a bottle of wine with a friend over lunch and they pour more into their glass than mine….what’s that all about??

The key moment for me, when I finally realised I was addicted to alcohol and that It was controlling my behaviour, was in Oct 18 (days before I quit once and for all) My husband was attending a kendo competition in London, so we decided it would be a good opportunity to take the boys to see the sights. Martin would be away during the day, but he’d be back in the evenings.

On Saturday morning, I decided to take the boys to the Tower of London (my kids love that kind of thing). Martin left early in the morning, so I took the boys for an early breakfast then we caught the tube over to the Tower of London. we were having an amazing day, but as lunch time approached, the boys were starting to get restless and hungry. I’d promised to treat myself to a glass of wine with my lunch for being so brave taking the kids out in London on my own. I was looking forward to sipping that cold glass of Chardonnay.

We came out of the Tower of London and the boys immediately spotted subway. “Mum I’m really hungry”, “mum I need the toilet”, “Mum we want subway” ,“mum it’s over there”. At that very moment, I could have walked 50 yards, bought my kids a subway and ended the moaning right there and then. But there’s one huge draw back with subway. They don’t serve wine and if they did it would be in a plastic cup. I do not drink wine out of a plastic cup. (Another reason I thought I was in control of my drinking)

I don’t know how well you know London, but I made my children (aged 6 and 9) walk over a mile, over the Tower Bridge, up and down steep steps, along the waterfront in hunt of a child friendly restaurant that served wine. The whole journey being accompanied by children’s whining “ mum my feet hurt”, “mum how far is it now”, “mum I’m hungry” “mum mum mum mum”. AAAAARRRRRRHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I caused that stress myself, I could of ended it 20 minutes ago, but because I needed a glass of wine I was willing to put myself through it. It would all be worth it in the end I told myself….but was it???

We eventually got to a pizza restaurant, I got my wine, my kids ran wild and continued moaning about how hungry they were while they waited 30 more minutes for their pizza to be made from scratch. The other people in the restaurant were continually tutting at me, wondering why, If I couldn’t control my kids, I’d brought them to such a restaurant. Well I’ll tell you why…………..

Because I need a bloody glass of wine if I’m going to have a chance at making it through the rest of this day!!!

I genuinely believed that!!!! I genuinely believed I NEEDED that glass of wine to get through my day. I didn’t of course, no body ever NEEDS alcohol, it serves no purpose what so ever.